Just over three years ago I hit what I call my “Rock Bottom”. After years of see-sawing through depression I took a handle of sleeping tablets because I just wanted to get away. I didn’t care what the consequences were, I just wanted a break.
The fact I had 2 beautiful healthy children and a loving supporting husband didn’t make me feel better and at the time I actually thought they would be better off without me. That’s the thing with depression. I felt so down in the dumps that I just couldn’t see all the wonderful things I had in life.
Fast forward to today and I feel awesome! Fantastic!
But how did I go from the depths of depression to feeling on top of the world?
Well it wasn’t easy, but then again it wasn’t really hard either. What it took was a decision that I wanted to change my thought patterns as I no longer wanted to feel depressed.
I took action. I made the phone to a spiritual councillor that I felt guided to call and knew on some level that she was what I needed. For you it may be seeing a psychologist, your doctor or a traditional councillor.
I then went to the first appointment. I know that may sound obvious, but some people can get stuck at just making the phone call and then come up with all sorts of excuses not to go.
I then went again and again and again. I actually joined weekly self-development classes as well as seeing her one on one. The point here is to keep going. Don’t stop after one, two or even three sessions. If you want to change the thought patterns you need to be consistent and you need to keep going. Give it time. It took about 6 months before I started to feel the difference. I wasn’t yet feeling awesome but I was feeling different and the down days were not so frequent.
In fact, it probably took about a year before I really started to feel good. I mean consistently good. Happy you could say, most days. And once I got to that point, I decided to keep going. I didn’t want to lose that feel good feeling and I knew I needed more.
These days I continue with the classes because I love them and it is helping me grow as a person. I now feel like I am in a position to help people and I want to help as many as possible. This is why I wrote my book Empowered Happiness, Discovering Bliss beyond Depression. The book is packed with tips and techniques I used to help me overcome the incessant negative self-talk that continually swirled around my mind. I want people to know that you can change and that life can be better with a little work… but the work is all worth it because one day, after months of effort, you wake up and you realise life really is wonderful!
Until next time remember, Happiness starts with a Smile